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I wish I could have her thinking.

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Regrets collect like old friends, here to relive your darkest moments.

Shake It Out by Florence and The Machines is good (y)

Chinese has been quite fun ^^ even though it is like 6 hours at once but at least we don't have to cope with facing the stress of the examinations.

Preparing for Chinese o level early by reading newspapers! And finding meaning of phrases :) maybe it will help. Maybe it will not but at least I'm doing something.

Saying hello to 5 months of tuition which hopefully will pull me up to A2s, I don't even request for A1s T_T jiayous~

Had a nice talk with Joyce and khasim. I think I should call them more often :)

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I thought you genuinely cared :/

Maybe not after all.

Maybe you just wanted to feel like you were powerful and respected. I did feel that way once.

Maybe not after all.

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I was just trying to be friendly.
Then all you had to say was that "she needs to slim down more than you".
So much for being friendly and accepting.

What an ass.

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Yesterday I listened to Susan Boyle's I Dreamed A Dream and Charlotte's and Jonathan's rendition of an Italian song and I cried while watching the video and listening to them sing. Somehow it connected to me in a way, although Jonathan and Susan were very different in personality.

But they faced the same problem - stereotyping from the audience. Especially Jonathan because to any person he just looks like an insecure overweight boy but his talent - woah. Unbelievable.

And the song that Susan chose to sing, I think it is about having big dreams but being limited by situations and reality. I guess that's what happens to everyone.

I think I cried because I understood how insecure and unconfident he felt in front of a big group of people, and also because I love these stories where people impress and prove people wrong on the first impression, especially if they doubted their abilities based on their appearance.

Although I might not have as much talent as them but it gives me inspiration and hope that someday I might also prove my detractors wrong and show them what I really can do.

I felt so genuinely touched and empathic, the first time I cried while watching someone sing. And seeing how Jonathan's friend supported him through everything, :')

"Now life has killed the dream I dreamed." This line has been stuck in my head since I heard the song yesterday.

I don't have the courage to ask you the questions that have been burning holes in my head. I don't know why I am getting so upset over it when you seem so nonchalant.

Going to the zoo on Monday ~ :)

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I just climbed 11 floors w/o panting too heavily :) okay it might not seem a lot but one step at a time for napfa training. My papers today are screwed, oh well~

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Well I was gonna write a long sappy post about how much a friend you've been but I figured not. I'm more angry than hurt.

From my assumptions, I assume you no longer look at me as your friend, just someone. Assumptions may turn out to be stupid misunderstandings but I have no courage, and don't want to, ask you.

I was so angry that I almost raged today, I wanted to but cooled down.

Maybe you were once considered close to me but not anymore. You may have used me, but not anymore because I'm done talking to you.

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